I just finished my fifth cycle of Xeloda, and so far this round was one of the hardest. Having gone through 2 sets of chemo, you'd think I'd get used to it. But the weakness, body aches and dizziness are something you wouldn't want to happen on a daily basis.
I asked myself, how else could I be productive in that state.
It concerned me that my daughters would often see me just lying down, watching my shows. Many times they would spend time with me, and often, we would enjoy these times together, but I'd be reminded to tell them, "Hey, this isn't your life. I am here because I am sick. Go out and MOVE. Sing. Play. Dance."
Anyway, I had a lot of time being in bed these past two weeks, experiencing some flares which resulted to body aches, dizziness and weakness because of my low low blood count.
That is chemotherapy. It is vicious and merciless.
But the people around me, and my bed :), give me lots of love and comfort.
Chili oil for back massages, good food, funny shows, lots of hugs and kisses, assuring words, and reliable care from my loved ones are what help me fight these side effects.
I thank the Lord for them all.
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