Humbling

Having cancer is a a very humbling thing. You see how limited your time is, here on earth; how weak your flesh is; and how much you are in need of a perfect God. 

We, humans, tend to forget that we are destructible. With all the glories we want to acquire - the best "stuff", respect, admiration, and envy of others, we forget that there is a God whom we ought to bow down to. We set up ourselves as our very own idols. 

I, for one, strong and seemingly far from sickness, dreamed of such grandeur. I wanted to make a name for myself through every good work I could think of and do. But I was always met with disappointments. The high that I was looking for after every endeavor was just not there. Whatever success I got was never enough. I always wanted more. 

During those times, I felt I just couldn't get a break and bad things were happening to me. Little did I realize that God was really protecting me. He was keeping me from straying far away from him.

One may ask, "What is wrong with dreaming big things for ourselves?" What's wrong with it is, we weren't created for ourselves, but for Him who formed us. 

We weren't born just so we could acquire glory for ourselves, but to give it to whom it is due, who alone is worthy. And the glory we give to Him, out of kindness, He shares it with us. 

We should, once and for all, realize that everything we were gifted to do - making art, music, dance, sports, literature....are all for Him! 

Cancer, like what I wrote in my last post, is also an ally. It helps me remember I am but flesh and blood, imperfect, limited, and in great need - but MADE FOR WORSHIP.

Why do bad things happen in this world? So we remember.....

Isaiah 66:1-2

Heaven is my throne and the earth is my footstool: What Temple can you build for me as good as that? My hand has made both earth and skies, and they are mine. Yet I will look with pity on the man who has a humble and a contrite heart, who trembles at my word.