So many things have happened before this post. Generally, the past few weeks, have been like what I would always say, a roller-coaster ride. There were bad days, but there were also good days. Oh how I savor the good days, like how I would with a plate of juicy and saucy baby-back ribs.
This will be a recollection of what I've been going through before this. Hopefully, I can impart some lessons.
I couldn't write because I had so many things in my mind to post that I couldn't decide on the topic. So I decided to just calm down and enjoy the pause.
We attended to mostly my condition, changing my chemo drug for the fourth time, blood transfusions, injections to increase my red blood cells, observing some new lumps, dealing with self-esteem, got my hair shaved off, dealing with open wounds, three-day visit to the hospital consecutively, dealing with pain....pain, pain , pain.......emotions, emotions, emotions......a roller-coaster ride indeed.
So I was not able to write. What I have been doing are these,
-I call them my "happy art"
Art is very calming for me. It brought fun and calmness into my pain. It brought out the kid in me too, which I have not seen in a long time. Thanks to a friend, I didn't know was a friend.(Cancer leads you to meet wonderful people).
-Bible reading. I have been in Proverbs 29 and Philippians. Now, I am in Colossians. These are some of the wise words I have seen,
Proverbs 29:23, "A person’s pride brings him down, but one of humble spirit has a firm hold on honor and respect."
Philippians 3:7-12, "But all these things that I once thought very worthwhile—now I’ve thrown them all away so that I can put my trust and hope in Christ alone. Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the priceless gain of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. I have put aside all else, counting it worth less than nothing, in order that I can have Christ.....I don’t mean to say I am perfect. I haven’t learned all I should even yet, but I keep working toward that day when I will finally be all that Christ saved me for and wants me to be."
Colossians 1:20-21 , "....through him God reconciled everything to himself. He made peace with everything in heaven and on earth by means of Christ’s blood on the cross. This includes you WHO WERE ONCE FAR AWAY from God. You were his enemies, separated from him by your evil thoughts and actions. Yet now he has reconciled you to himself....."
-Home school. To be with my girls, and see how joyful, sensitive, and caring they've become gives joy to my heart. This relieves my pain too. It makes me forget about cancer. Home school gives me purpose, to be hands-on with their education, to not just be concerned with the academics but more so, the building up of their character. I agree, academics are highly important. With the one-on-one lectures with their tutor and myself, my girls do understand concepts better. I learned that education, in its truest sense, is the building up of the mind, heart, and spirit. (Now I wish we have photos of our homeschool sessions.)
-Selfies. Please don't hate me for this. I know some, maybe many, associate this with mental disorder, and so many other negative things, and I agree, there are so many selfies that should remain private, or should not even have happened! But, hey, I was just having fun. I'm stuck at home, and I used to work as a photographer, hence, the self-portraits, aka, selfies. Plus I enjoy my photo apps so much. Good excuse? Here's my latest selfie....haha
-Lastly, (but not the LEASTLY...just a side joke that's obviously corny) my relationship with Doods gets tested......and strengthened. I won't elaborate on this, but I'll say this, we won it. In Jesus' name, we got the victory! We are sweeter and STRONGER together than ever.
Blessings to all, in the name of my Savior, Jesus, amen.
