Pushed Over The Edge

I came across this article from Desiring God, entitled, This May Push You Over The Edge. 

It talks about a preaching that is so powerful that not even the writer of the article could give a summary. He only posted a link of the preaching, which, I, too, will do. I will also not attempt to explain it. I will only write here how it made me feel and what it made me think.

Let's start with how it made me feel. It comforted me that it shouldn't shock me that I am going through what I'm going through now. There are things happening in our lives as Christians, and I love this part, that only the resurrection from the dead can explain or justify. If there were no resurrection, we might as well just give it all up, stop all the hoping and rejoicing as we are suffering. But our faith says, there's life after all these, and so, we hope and live trying, by the grace of God, to please Him who made us despite the sufferings.

It comforted me to know that it is possible to be happy as we are experiencing sorrows. For the first time, I felt, that was possible. 

Before my diagnosis, I couldn't get my mind around that phrase, "sorrowful and yet, rejoicing."

But now that we are going through this, yes, it is possible. That is how we are now. It isn't perfect, but we are joyful in the midst of our sorrows.

I am comforted that as I hold on to my faith, while we are bombarded by trials, my God is glorified and someday, I will also share this with Him, because of the suffering of Christ on the cross. Heavy stuff but worth mentioning.

From His suffering came LIFE in eternity, and glory. It is both comforting and awe-inspiring to know that, isn't it?

Second, what did the preaching make me think? 

I thought, I am so fortunate to be more aware of my mortality. It really makes one think to be in such a place. 

In my limited time here on earth, how dare I think that I am here to just enjoy, which I think a lot of lately. 

What does God, MY MAKER, want me to do? Doesn't He have the say, the right to command, instruct, and mold......He is after all the Architect of this life.

Of course, God wants me to have quality time with my family and friends and enjoy it immensely, but before that, shouldn't I be thinking, what really is my purpose for being here? Why am I in the position I am in now. Surely, he has a plan. And it is my job to seek it.

Right now, this is what I can do. Write. Post. Be expressive of what is in my heart. I'd like to believe, somehow, there is some good brought into my circle of family and friends because of what I do now.

Here's the link to the preaching, Live To Die . Please find sometime to listen to it. I agree, it sounds pretty heavy and it takes patience to listen and read through the transcript, but it is definitely, life-changing.