Perfect Love

It is the love month! My blog design has been ready for it since the beginning of the year. 

I am not sure why I got into liking heart designs when I was never into these things in the past. I found Valentine's Day corny - the red everything, bears, hearts, chocolates, cupids, and lovers roaming everywhere. Ugh, it's just too much! It doesn't look real. 

I have a different view on love. 

First, do not get me wrong, I am a fan of feeling "kilig" too. But I am looking for something different. More than the outward stuff, to me, these are what matter - sincerity, loyalty, and selflessness, which I am continually working on to have, which I am constantly teaching my children, which I have found in my husband, which JESUS has patiently modeled for us. 

I love the way Jesus loves. 

Once you have opened yourself to His love, you are secure. You can lie down through storms and have peace, because you know He is beside you, even carrying you at times. 

You can say no to fear of the future because God's got your back! And He never disappoints. 

His love is gentle. He whispers words that assure and calm your fears. He eases your pain, and lets you rest from all your troubles. He answers your doubts, understands your weaknesses, and gives you new strength.

His love is strong. He corrects you where you are wrong, so you will not be hurt and irreparably broken. He doesn't hesitate to give "tough love", if it is what's needed, but He restores and gets you back on your feet; arms, equips, prepares you for battles ahead. 

He fights with you. 

He fights FOR you. 

He loves like a loyal friend, a passionate lover, a sacrificing soldier, focused athlete, and an understanding, all-powerful Father. 

I love the way He loves.

May the love of the Father and His Son, Jesus be with us all.

Let us all feel loved this season, because we are. 

FB World

Every time I change to a new chemo drug, it would always be a low point for me emotionally. 

This last one, where I had to change from Taxotere to Cisplatin, I had bouts of weeping for two days. Every new chemo med gives me new hope and when it fails, I get into a state of great sadness and confusion. 

I still do need to accept in a greater measure that the nature of my cancer (probably) requires  a change of chemo med from time to time. I still am in that process of learning. 

For the meantime, I was in bed for two days upon knowing that Taxotere wasn't working anymore, looking for answers and comfort. 

After going to the bible for words of wisdom, I turned to Facebook looking for friendly faces and some encouragement. And even though, many times I get a lot of comfort through fb, the story just wasn't the same that night. Maybe I was just too sad. Maybe I was looking for it from the wrong people.

What I realized was we were given a powerful tool in our hands to touch others. From thousands of miles away, we can offer comfort, encouragement, and impart joy and peace. May we not thoughtlessly use it just for selfies, ads and worse, self promotion. 

I know WE ALL have our moments of indulgence in fb, when we simply have fun, posting our portraits, food, vacations, and every fun thing we are doing. Most of the time I am amused by these posts. But we shouldn't forget that we have an audience that are seeking to know more, feel better, and BE better.

It was a reminder for me to be even more thoughtful in what I post. We're in Facebook not just for ourselves, but also for our friends, who do not need to always see our faces, be exposed to our rants, know what we eat or wear, or might not benefit from all our bragging.

That night, as I scrolled down my newsfeed, I thought it would be better to just turn off my Ipad and go to sleep. 

Philippians 2

3 Don’t be selfish; don’t live to make a good impression on others. Be humble, thinking of others as better than yourself.4 Don’t just think about your own affairs, but be interested in others, too, and in what they are doing.